KNEW IT WAS TO GOOD TO LAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I didnt get much sleep last night,and when i did wake up this morn i hav been in agony ever since.
My side feels like there is a knife being twiszted around,my back is in a bad way and im vomiting.

When i got in from work,i just started to cry,why?i havent a clue,maybe it was the relief of getting through the day.I jumped into a hot bath just to ease the pain and sat there crying,when i got out of the bath,i locked myself away from everybody and went to bed.

I have now stopped the Provera,took none at all Today as there is no point.I hope the pain subsides.Ive been havin a feel sorry for myself day Today,asked questions like:
WHY ME?
WHAT HAVE I DONE SO WRONG TO BE SUFFERING LIKE THIS?
WHY DOES NOBODY ELSE UNDERSTAND WHAT IM GOING THROUGH?
IS THIS MY LIFE,A LIFE OF PAIN?
WHY THE HECK AM I CRYING?
HOW MANY MORE YEARS WILL I HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS?
AM I GOING MAD?

The list just goes on and on and on.This just isnt like me to have a feel sorry for myself day,im not a huggey person but i could of done with a hug Today.

No more hormone medication it driving me mad,im like a different person,its time to put my foot down and take no more crap.

Please oh please let me feel better Tomorrow :-(